Bapak's diary: Welcome, baby.

For non-malay speakers, you might not know what is bapak. Bapak is a word describing a father, misunderstood as an old school way of presenting a father figure.

Bapak is a word I imagine as a very strict father but so loving and caring towards his childrens, that his children will say,

"My bapak eh, he tied me to a tree one day because I go steal some food in kitchen before my sibs get to eat weh, but he gave me his food later because I wont get the same volume with my sibs. I love my bapak so much woh"

Merepek kan aku? My wife knows how merepek I am everyday haha.

Honestly, I was gila-gila not ready to be a father. The plan with my wife to start having kids after 25y/o (yeah, we are of the same age, she's one month older kahkah), to have a proper job, settle down in Melaka, have a car atleast.

But none of that actually happen! HAHA

Somehow, we found out she was pregnant when we checked her period was few days late,

(tiap kali her period came late, I'll ask her to check if she's preggy haha, guess that was a part of me thats excited and also scared LOL)

that was the first pregnancy check done. few days later, we went to Dr Habsah for another pregnancy test, positive again. Got a shot of the baby probably so small I can't even remember the size lel. Finally, actually due to her job in Konica Minolta was confirmed last year, we decided to come home not to work in Japan, so for accepting Konica she was needed to do a med check up, again another preggy test lol. Three times olredi lah, haha.

At this point, I am already so mixed up haha. Whether to joy or worry, I have no job, still planning to do a JAD travel consultant lah, want to pursue masters in overseas again lah, so many dreams yet no actions. Thats when I decided to take on an interview at DXC, IBM and AIG. My wife got her job at Tech Mahindra, and I got DXC and IBM, but as DXC offered a permanent position, I took DXC over IBM.

So right now, am I feeling happy or worried over the coming baby?

Happy lorr, aku dah kerja, got few years new plan worked out, rented my mother's car until I can buy my own.

Cumanya satu je, kesian baby aku nanti takde sapa nak jaga after the mum's need to go work again after her two months paid leave.

Anyhow, I can't wait to become a daddy, to spend my time managing the turds and cries, to have my sleepless nights and panda eyes next day, to only being grateful for this habb from Almighty God that not all will feel in their life.

Hopefully the baby will grow well inside the mother tummy and get out in perfect condition, perfect mind and being blessed with so many rizq :) inshaAllah.

That's all for today, signing out.

Keith: a bapak to be